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You remind me of a sunday back home1/15/2024 Of course, I'm familiar with the concept of yearning, which is a very common grief reaction. It just seems to make sense that people would look for those they love and miss in the appearance, personality traits, values, abilities, roles and tendencies of others. Don't others have this experience? Maybe I am weird. This morning I looked around the Internet to see if I could find anything about seeing your loved one in other people after they die. In fact at one point in the interview Diane Sawyer actually said to Julie Andrews something to the effect of, "You know, there are people on the internet who say they wish you were their mother." For a second this made me think that Julie-Andrews-Mother-Envy was really a thing. I can tell some of you are starting to think I'm weird, but I'm not. I don't have the usual tabloid fodder to prove she's anything but what I idealize my mother to have been. I don't know how it was in the days when she was front-and-center, but if she was a part of rumors or gossip or scandal it was way before my time. I guess maybe that's part of the reason why it works, Julie Andrews von Trapp is kind of a blank slate to me. It's remarkable how much I've allowed my mind to project my mother onto a woman I don't even know. Her short hair, her love of children, her guitar, her singing, her values and idealism - which 'her' am I talking about? Doesn't matter, they're the same person! I'm only slightly exaggerating. I think I underestimated just how much my mind has confused Maria von Trapp, as played by Julie Andrews circa 1965, with my own mother. Remember when we told you that grief triggers tend to pop up when you least expect them? Well, thats exactly what happened when last night my delightful romp through Salzburg, Austria with Diane Sawyer and Julie Andrews turned into an hour long sob-fest. Last night I watched ABC's special "The Untold Story of 'The Sound of Music.'" I stopped on the special because I thought it would be a harmless and happy break from the murder and deception of HBO's, The Jinx, which I had just finished watching. Also check out the raw live performance at the bottom.Coping with Grief Triggers, Is this Normal? This is flawless songwriting and execution, and it never fails to flood me with nostalgia for the past, and for the future. This is beautiful poetry, and it doesn’t hurt that his voice truly great on it’s own and is twisted up with emotion when he breathes life into this. This is something I severely lacked in the past and am just starting to find with every year that passes.Įvery word here hits me personally in one way or another. It’s a desperate, last chance plea, completely void of ego and foolish pride. The chorus brings in a strong sense of realizing he is wrong and that he needs to change in order to keep the person he so beautifully describes his love for in the both verses. Regardless, feeling that way is something I have an intense wistful affection to potentially feel in the future. I’m not sure I’ve ever loved someone like the mountains love the way the morning opens to a soft a bright greeting from the sun, but doesn’t that sound truly amazing? Maybe I have and I just didn’t know it at the time, which is perhaps another story. The words in this song paint vivid pictures of love, regret, and nostalgia. These are the songs I end up repeating the most, hoping to feel it every time, and with much success. There are many songs that evoke this feeling for me a longing for something I’ve never had or haven’t had for a long time, and I could go in depth about every single one of them if free time wasn’t scarce. “Wistful for the future” is a phrase I saw, and I don’t suppose that’s incorrect, but, to me, nostalgia represents a very specific, deep feeling, much stronger than just “wistful”, and so even though it is technically incorrect, I’m choosing to rebrand it as “Nostalgia for the Future”. Now, as far as I know, due to my very brief online research just a moment ago, there is not a word that represents having that same feeling for the future. I am very lucky to have many great memories and experiences with family and friends, so many that it brings me to tears at times. “A sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.”įor the past. Now, the definition of nostalgia is as follows: There’s something inside of me that is very susceptible to the feeling of nostalgia.
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